The Xanax Chronicles

I started watching Bordertown this weekend.  I wasn't expecting that first scene, the one where they strangeled the woman to death.  It's pretty detailed.  It's pretty graphic.  It's pretty fucking realistic.  

It's not something I needed to see.  As I sit here, I can feel the hands around my neck.  My neck feels constricted.

I didn't know about this scene.  I shouldn't have watched.  I don't know how this will affect my sleep tonight.  I don't know if I'm going to wind up having another panic episode.  

A month ago, I watched the Stoning of Soroya M.  I didn't know that was so graphic, but I figured I was safe because it didn't have anything to do with me.  The next  day, I had a panic attack.  

Next week, my trauma work begins.  I'm not sure how it will be done.  I don't know what to expect.  

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